Not meaning to sound desperate or anything, but I want to feel that heart-beating-faster love. The love that makes your heart go doki-doki. The love that makes you crave after a person, and think about them all the time. When you feel estatic whenever you see them and just want to hug them forever.

Just for one day, it would be nice to feel that. Just to know how it really feels. Plus it sounds fun.

I don`t know what to feel, or how to feel. I`m not even sure what my emotions are. There are so many factors to this. What if this person is not as nice as I first thought? Oh blah blah blah. @.@

Although a person may be surronded by multitudes of people, inside they are the loneliest of souls.

For some odd reason, lately I have been just feeling aggro at everything. The smallest thing from anyone will tick me off. I have no idea whatsoever and I`m just worried that I`ll stay like this forever.

I hate people that are late.
I hate people that are constantly late.
I hate people that make me late.

grrrr. nung nung.

Bit scary now. HSC is fast approaching and getting my estimated UAI of the Bored of Studies has been quite the rude awakening.

My father doubts my chances of getting into a good uni course, and he makes it very plain for me to see. A bit unnerving knowing that your own father doesn`t really believe in you. =/

And flicking through the UAC guide and reading about courses has made me plan my distant future in a way.
- get accepted into UTS or USyd and complete a B Education (primary education) or B Applied Science (Medical Radiation Sciences).
- finish my course and get a few years of experience under my belt.
- move back to Hong Kong.

Crossing my fingers and making wishes at 11:11 that all turns well. But then again, hardly anything goes to plan. 

Things will work out, yeah?